Numb (alm) 2013…Planning to do ab open mic in future. Who’ll join me? :)
To not die until I’ve accomplished something worthwhile. To not hurt anyone. To have a few lovers here and there. To write about it. To travel. To buy things for my family. To stop making my mother cry. To eat good, fresh food. To cook well. To have a mentor. To learn. To have barefoot excursions and midnight conversations with pretty-eyed girls. To live in a hotel room with a huge, white bed. To have wine parties with old friend who have wondered where I’ve been. To have a collection of vinyl records. To be friends with the invisible people in the invisible towns. To have a local wine-shop owner greet me by name as I walk into his store. To watch the sun rise a few times. To watch the sun set every time. To write a perfect sentence. To read all the great books. To dream about what could have been. To see a perfect opportunity for love and walk in the other direction. To find passion. To make people think.
One item on my bucket list
1 ’ M feeling slightly off. Like a bubble that has burst yet the vapors remain in the air. News of or estranged friends Sudden death Makes me feel ashamed that in this tragedy I think of my own mortality . The lost opportunity to say “I love you” ” 1 ‘M sorry” “you were important to me “…
Even sadder is the refusal of those to listen to you pushing the away love you were taught to give others. In these moments I retreat back into my shell afraid that when I stick out my head again it only will be Chopped off!
Is it the grieving that makes me so? My need to walk midefinitelf for a destination I may die before dying? Just when I theft I found my purpose l fid I’m only more lost than when I started. And despite finding potential companions along the way p realize what enters the heart the brightness of love or the dark Spirit that creates loneliness + bitternes.
The true test of a soul mate is one who loves the other enough to believe in himself or herself.
Perhaps 1 mourn my friends death is that if our distance had been bridged together w e both may have benefited from each other’s influence?
Then again they say Sometimes we must let go. sometimes we let go at the wrOng time + for the wrong reasons. Or we let go the wrong people,
God, please just guide t help us all!
One of my favorite Doctor Who episodes. Ever